"I love being a stay at home mom and I absolutely love Homeschooling and its going so well but some days truly are tough. Some days, I wonder why I haven't chosen the easy road. Some days I envy what other moms have (the break). Today is one of those days. It's days like today that I ask God to give me the extra strength and patience to just make it until bedtime (that's when I get my break) and re...
mind me of why I've chosen and love this. God didn't promise me that this would always be easy but He did promise that He would be there every step of the way and that through my obedience our reward would be great!! On that note, is it bedtime yet because nap time (which really consisted of me repeating myself saying "go to bed") is almost over."
The post sums up some of what I've been reminded of today but God showed me more that I felt I wanted to expound on. I am relating this towards our homeschool adventure but I believe this is for any calling /purpose that God has called you too. I hope it encourages someone.
School actually went well today. I enjoyed it and overall the boys did great. We have a few things to figure out with Carsten. He is really striving to get my attention and emotionally upset about it. I try so hard to plan things but he seems to not want to do any of what I plan so back to Pinterest I'm heading! What would I do without that site?
So, no my frustrations didn't come from teaching rather than just from the pileup of duties! I feel I can't keep up on my house which actually stresses me out anyway. I know it's not important but I physically can't handle a cluttered home. My mind wanders to what needs done. So it's important that I stay up on it, in order to to keep my sanity. We have guests coming tomorrow, so the idea of how to fit in cleaning my house, shopping and having dinner ready is always overwhelming to me and when the boys choose to not nap, it takes away my time to get something done which just adds to my stress and frustrations. I have also been getting to bed rather late and I honestly struggle with patience when I'm tired.
I have confidence that I can teach them the knowledge they need to know but today I was lacking complete confidence in myself in teaching them what really matters. I was feeling so overwhelmed and wondering whether this really was what was best for my boys. It's so important to me that they are patient and loving and love God. I can tell them these things but what they truly learn from is by my example. I don't always feel that my example is always the best example to follow. I began to question whether being with another teacher was better for them. They will be more patient than I am being. That's got to be way better than what I have to offer right?
I sat down tonight to read my You Version study, Living a Divinely Inspired Life and specifically asked God to show me what I needed to hear. I knew He would having something to say about this. It has been a while since I've read it so I began at the beginning. Here is how it started:
"The first moon landing in 1969 was a momentous event in history. On that day, mankind achieved something that many previously thought impossible. The amazing thing is that because the wind does not blow on the moon, the footprints of over 40 years ago are still there and will be there for a very long time.
For this reading plan, leaving your footprints on the moon refers to the fulfilment of your God given purpose for your life; the achievement of that seemingly impossible or unattainable goal that can only happen with divine empowerment. Purpose represents something God has placed in your heart to become; a role He has chosen for you to fulfil; a place He has destined for you to occupy and a need He has created you in answer to."
Wow! God is so good. I love when He answer me right away. Our vision seems to be such an "unattainable goal" that I have set for us and I'm feeling like, God, why did you choose this path for me? I am inadequate." Duh! Yes, I am inadequate. Yes, God does know my weaknesses, but yet He still chose me. He knows I can't do it alone. i need His divine empowerment in order to achieve what we have been called to. The enemy was trying so hard to use my inadequcy to lead me astray from what God has called me to and I started to listen to him and not to what God has to say about it. Thank you, God, for reminding me that you are near, listening and walking with me every step of the way. Thank you for reminding me that I can't do this alone and that I need Your Divine Intervention every day!
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